A person's existence got lost in the wilderness of a city
as the noise gets lost into the silence of graveyard;
Now the person itself denies the existence
as the sword of executioner denies seeing the red
Is shahar ki chilla-po main ek insaan ka wajood yun gum ho gaya
mano qabristan ke sannate main lashon ki cheeekhen gum ho gayee ho
Ab yeh aalam hai ki us insan ko apne us wajood se is kadar inkar hai
mano jallad ki shamsheer ko laal rang se inkar ho......
Don't know why I wrote this but such thoughts have crept into my mind through this way or tat. Such incidents have cornered me and I have always tried to avoid these....... But these and many a things of my life and my thoughts have always led to a conclusion tat I am DEPRESSED or to say it more bluntly I am a SADDIST...........am I????? dont know...........
Well leaving aside these serious topics I wud like to share a few lighter ones:::::
Once, in my school days, the results were out for a math test and there was this fellow who got 99 out of 100.......gr8 performance and we all thought tat the person will be damn happy but in the recess we saw the person crying like anything..............reason being y not 100? how cud the teacher not give 100? Ya I know its gud to aim high and thrive for it but crying at 99......isnt it too much.............anyways we had a gr8 laugh tat day
Yaa last year I sat in the aeroplane for the first time.....well not greatly excited but ya thrilling during the take off..........I guess its a bit noisy in the planes too..........the sound of engines.........the clouds looked like pieces of big cottons........for the first time I saw different layers of clouds and the earth down looked like a big floor with shades of tiles in green and gray The buildings looked like tiny playing houses.........it was really interesting and cool
Recently I was talking to a gal (one of those rare moments) and one of my friends saw me and yelled "setting" implying tat it ma`y open up a new opening in my life----these guys are rally nutss....:p.....hey I do caught the changing xpressions on the face of the gal.... :D I guess she must have thought these guys r really ass***** ;-)
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hey..first - u r not a saddist...ok..ok..sorry..i lied ..u r :D.Why do u say so? we enjoy so much being with u..u r very humorous but yeah..in a different way :D...*setting* - dont u want to make those rare moments something like usual+pleasant moments? I can be of some help :D..remember??? the wrong number???:D
ya demos u rightly said there is diff between being ambitious and being arrogant.
Hey abne those moments are pleasant for me but not for the other half :D
I don't think your a saddist, just thinking a little darkly right now and sometimes you can get alot of inspiration from darkness, as you have just shown. The 99/100 story, that is a little dramatic but i guess it is arrogance. It is what comes with the beleif that you will always deserve 100 and that is no way to live. You have to accept the good and the bad and learn from it, a 99 isn't even bad! I'm laughing at him too.
Thanks liberta, may be u r rite...
The "shahar ki chilla-po" stuff is amazing, worth giving a thought. Where did you get it from?
The fellow who got 99 out of 100 annd cried...even I have had a classmate who did that. Maybe we are too naive in that age to understand that more than marks, it's your attitude that matters in the longer run.
well amrita, I must not boast of it(shahar ki chilla-po) being originally mine as I must have read sth similar and came up with it but ya it got a little creativity frm my side.
Well rightly said its the attitude, its the determination tat takes u places and not the show-off
Or may be the girl's expression changed because the guys around where not linking you and her with the intensity she wants ;-).... guess i should have been there!! :P
If you ever want to ponder over the same thought line for more than a couple of minutes,try reading the
1)Expressionism (Google for existential angst as well)
2)Fountainhead
Both of them are independant lines of thoughts which can be a good extension to what I think you are thinking.
I guess some people never get satisfied in life...and that is irritating at times!
So what do u do in life?
hey deshmukh---I have read 90% of fountainhead and m really fond of it ...cudnt finish it bcoz of some reasons :-(
Regarding Expressionism I will surely look for it some day
and b..I m software professional at the moment
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